Feliz Año Nuevo Parents!

So my parents are on a plane to Mexico right now which is pretty cool i think. Spur of the morning and found cheap tickets so i encouraged mom that we could find someone to take care of the dogs. So i guess i am coming home on Tuesday to help with that. They will be back Tuesday night so it is a pretty quick trip but i think they will love it. They need a good trip without us kids and moms face at the security gate showed she was pretty happy. But that was an interesting morning call. I am happy for them. They are spending New years in Mexico!

Today was pretty chill for those of us Mo-towners who are around enjoying our last week before school starts again. Meg and I spent our day at the boys house where we did... not a lot. Just Dance in the morning. Watched 21 Jump Street and then they played Quelf! and I played Dragoon. Until i got bored and we all sat around for an hour and a half. Ate au gratin potatoes and talked and such. Complete definition of a "lazy day". No one wanted to do anything outside of the living room and we all were being burrito blanket monsters all day since the boys don't pay for heating their house.

I had a good Christmas with the Helwigs yesterday. Chris is home now and it was good to see him. Hopefully i will again before he goes back to SoCal. Also, Robyn and I both got each other the exact same pajamas as gifts... And then the exact same pajamas for ourselves when we were purchasing the gift for each other. So that was pretty funny that we both thought such similar things, owls and Purple stripes for the win this year! But it was really funny. I got my sketch pad back from Grandpa and it is pretty sweeeeeeet. I love all his doodle work and now i have a full book of sketches he does and drawings and such. They are really cool. BUt it has been a great holiday! I am excited i have a week more of break but i have to use it to get a lot of forms done and scholarships. Blecccch. I will start on Tuesday :-) AFTER the new year :-)

Merry Christmas Ya'll

This year has been a pretty good christmas. We did the harkins christmases in a row and got to host at my house which was kinda cool. Much more laid back than it was at theirs i think. But maybe just because i am more comfortable at my own house. We had sooooo much food. All really good but wow lots of food!

I got a lot of cool french stuff this year and got a replacement chain for the one that i lost and even a little Eiffel tower to PUT on it! I got a new laptop cooling which i needed since mine broke. Also a teapot a calendar, some cool art, fuzzy pjs and socks, a t-shirt, and other stuff which was also good.

Mostly today we have been playing the new video games megan and spencer got and chillin. We played my new Disney Princess Candyland game as a family and also old maid. It was awesome! Mom made fudge finally after two group christmases without it! So that was good. Now i am debating to go change back into my sweaty clothes to play games or what. So i dunno. I've been playing a lot of Legends of Dragoon for PS1 lately. I'm only on the second disc out of four. But one of these days i'll have to get a lot of work done on my France application. Bleh. Applying to colleges sucks.

Importance

I miss feeling important. In high school I felt important. I did a lot for a lot of different groups. I helped out a lot of people in different ways. I felt important to a lot of people.

Now i don't feel very important. I don't really feel like i am doing much. I'm not in a relationship anymore. And i'm not even like a special someone to anyone. No one talks about me with their extended family. And i miss that. And i miss DOING stuff. That made me feel important. Now i feel kinda unimportant.

I want a relationship. But not for the right reasons. I want to feel important again. And special to someone.

Christmas Break

Not much has really been going on to bother talking about. Mostly i've just been hanging out at Candlewood or at home doing nothing. I did crochet myself a scarf! That took me a couple days. I like it. Now i just need to make a hat. But i haven't gotten that bored yet. I took my computer in to get fixed last week. It kept having blue screens and shutting down and i guess it was a driver issue. So it was good i brought it in. They had to do a factory restore so I had to download a lot of my programs again. So that was sucky. But the computer guy was reallllly attractive. Reallly. So when i went to go pick it up I convinced Rosalyn to take the drive back home with me. She agreed.

Then i went ot the doctor. I've been having throat problems for like 3 weeks. And i noticed that my tonsils were abnormally large. And painful... So i decided to go in when i had to get my shots anyways. She looked at them and said she couldn't see past my tonsils to even see my throat. She said from the symptoms that i have it is probably not strep or mono. So maybe it will go away. She didn't give me anything for it. She said that if I've bee on the allergy pills for 2 weeks and there has been no difference then it's probably not that. So if I get sick i'm supposed to call them but other than that they won't do anything. Soooo thats helpful. In the meantime they hurt and make it harder to breathe. So that sucks. And i had to get 2 shots so that was no bueno. When i was going to go to bed i couldn't lift my arm to get my sweatshirt off so i had to have Rosalyn help me. Good friend that one.

But I haven't really been up to much besides that. Watched the last episode of Gossip Girl ever. I liked that show. Now I'm almost caught up with Vampire Diaries. Rosalyn's going home for Christmas today so I'll probably go back to the boys like I did yesterday, play some league or something. Mostly i am just enjoying break. I've read a couple books and bought a couple presents. Made a stocking. There has yet to be any significant snow so that's a little sad...

I'm trying to decide if i am going to go home Friday. I don't really have gas money so maybe i will just go after all our Christmases this weekend. Plus then it is a much shorter ride to Eugene. But i will have to see Spegans plans. But then i miss caroling. Which i would only be going to for the other people going. I don't really want to sing with my throat/tonsils being weird. Seems like just a bad idea. But I dunno i have heard word that there may be a Christmas party that night with Cassidy and Josh? But i haven't really gotten any info. So who knows. My break plans are all up in the air.

Also: Liv has decided to move out of the house because she is going to start going to a medical assisting school in Salem. So it just makes sense for her to live at home because it is closer. So i guess now i will have my own bathroom for a little while. But sounds like there will be some confusion with her and Roz about what is whose because there are some gray areas. So that should be interesting...

Fête des Lumières

Why am I not there!??!? Next year I totally want to be. Really badly...

It's Beginning to Look a lot like Christmas...

So today we went to get a Christmas tree. And it was pretty fun but i mildly suspect that I may be allergic... I remember feeling allergic to Jordans families tree. But i got a 30 pack of allergy pills so that should be helpful. Also i have been having some weird throat tightness/scratchiness/pain. I dunno could be? But that has been going on since Thanksgiving. I suspect allergies. Dad suspects that it could be my tonsils. Which i would also suspect because they have felt swollen and painful as of recent. But I have been feeling like something is kinda wrong. But i am waiting until i have double insurance to go see. But i figure in the mean time that if it is allergies these over the counter pills will help. :-) But yeah we went and got a tree today. I found a lot of cool trees. But not everyone liked them. Lots of red ones and ones like my above formal Christmas picture. But that's okay we got a regular boring green one. 

But it looks good. We have white and red lights (odd for me but w/e). It looks good. Also the other night i put up outside Christmas lights on our stair rails and above the door. That was cool. I'm getting very Christmas-y this year which is cool because it has been a while since it really felt like a good Christmas to me. But now i think this is a good year for it. There's a possibility that we may host a Christmas on the closest Sunday at Candlewood which would be weird kinda. Not bad but weird. After we decorated the tree we all fell asleep which was kinda funny.

I woke up first and it kinda got me thinking. Our lives can change so fast. And when you graduate from High School everyone says that when you walk out that you are worried about what to do with your life. But i don't think it is really about what you do with your life but more about the decisions that you make that completely alter your life. If i had stayed at Linfield then right now i would probably be a theater major, living on campus, with a few friends, and would owe a crap ton of money in loans. In retrospect I'm a completely different major, living off campus in a house my parents own, with a bunch of really great friends, and owe a crap ton less money in loans. But i'm not. See that one decision totally has changed my life. And not that it is bad it is just different. Not to mention relationship stuff... But i am kinda trying to keep my mind off all of that lately... :-(

But this Christmas stuff has been fun. I went shopping at a bunch of thrift stores and got some good decorations I think. GIANT stockings. Pretty cool.  Yeah :-)