George Fox

I like it. A lot.

Pictures of Recent Happenings

 Apparently to multiple colleges.

 November Calendar!

 At my first Potter Hall meeting we made hand turkeys. I made the mistake of thinking that all the markers were washable... But the brown was not. So for a couple days my hand was outlined in brown. My Senegalese French Teacher thought that it was a tattoo...

 Picture from my bike ride route.

 And another.

 And another.

 Car in Sharis parking lot. 

 Turkey i drew at thanksgiving in a rock garden sand box thing.

 One of these fish is not like the other. Though now my tank has lots of orange colored fish. 8 are in there. I predict like 5 by the end of the week... :-/ Petco giftcards always nice. 

Apple or Pear?

These were just some pictures that i had been meaning to post. But hadn't... Today was kinda weird. I woke up feeling awake. Which was really weird. Then, i went to class and stuff. And everything was kinda normal. But at work we hung lights. And it was sorta like we each did a section thing. So it was kinda quiet but nice. Then i went to dinner. And then went shopping. I went to JC Penny first. I found a couple presents for Megan. Saved A CRAP TON OF MONEY! Holy cow. With what i bought i saved $108 and spent $60. Totally worth it. It was awesome. I might go back... FOr me... They had a necklace that i really like. I'd seen it on other people and liked it. So now i want it. It looks like this:

I think i'll get it as a gift to myself. Maybe for getting through the week... Yep. Then i went to Pier One imports which is an AWESOME store. It was cool I like their stuff. I can't wait until i have money and a house to decorate. It will be awesome. And i got a gift for my mom. And if she doesn't like it I will take it. And then i spent a really long time at Petco because i got really distracted by all the fish. Big fish scare me... If it is bigger than my thumb it is scary. Aw CRAP. I forgot to get a toothbrush. I left mine at home and was supposed to get one today. Ugh.

Pizza

I made pizza. And i got a large because i wanted to eat it all week. So yeah. But i had no pot holders to take the pizza out... SO i used socks. Which was scary. But it worked. And i didn't have a pizza cutter so i used a knife. And i didn't have any foil. So i used the syrand wrap that came on the pizza... SO pretty much all i had was the oven... Because i had to go get the pizza. Sooo yeah. I'm in college.

I had a rough day. We went to the Transyberian orchestra. It was okay. Not what i remembered. Pretty lame lights i thought... And it was really long. And lots of people...

I think i'm becoming more OCD. Like. My room is really clean almost all the time. And not correct things bug me. And yeah. Maybe perfectionist. But i thought of this because i got really clausterphobic while we were waiting in line to go in. I really am a space person. I need space. And i hate malls because of all the people. I get freaked. Something about too many different people that i don;t know their motives. Freaks me out. I guess i'm just a small town girl.

I feel bad for my cousin. Him and his longtime girlfriend just split. And i feel really bad. I feel like now everyone's falling apart... But i hope he know that i love him. :-)

I didn't beat all of Kingdom Hearts this week like i wanted. I got to the last level though... Guess i'll have to go to spencers sometime.

THTR Class: 6days left
Work: 6?
INQVomit: 3!
Weekend days: 4
Colloquium:1

Christmas List

Sweatshirts: S

Shirt : M

PJ Pants :  M

McAfee Antivirus

Reusable Shopping bags. Fun looking ones would be nice.

Fuzzy Socks

Gift cards to anywhere. I’d really like gift cards. Especially to Safeway, Target, Petco, Walmart, Freds, Victorias Secret, Old Navy.

Cool Travel Mugs

A soup pot with a lid.

Aristocats on DVD

Nice leather/ waterproof driving gloves

Original Art from my Uncle Bill or Grandpa made just for me.

Boxtops

Money.

GF?

 Email to Theatre Guy at George Fox.

Hello,

    My name is Kacy Helwig and I am a freshman currently at Linfield College. I don't know if you remember but you judged my Lighting Design at the Oregon State Thespian Conference two years ago when I designed for Children of Eden by Stephen Schwartz. I graduated last year from St.Helens High School and decided to go to Linfield for a major in Theatre, and while I have enjoyed the department at this school I have found it very difficult to want to stay here for the remainder of the year. While my work study job of being a lighting assistant has been both fun and an eye opening experience, the social community of Linfield and requirements of the degree have left me unfulfilled.

    I am looking at transferring to a different college in the winter that would be able to provide me with more of a design or technology base and somewhere where I would not need to participate in acting. I would someday like to be a lighting designer perhaps for something as great as Disney but do not have a passion or much interest in acting, which would be required for the degree offered at Linfield. I was wondering what advice you could give me about colleges that would be able to provide me with both hands on experience in working on lights and on designing shows. I have strongly been considering going to George Fox as I think that this program could offer many things and that I could learn a lot from you.

    I was wondering what kind of classes you offer for theatre design majors and what opportunities you could be able to offer as well as any suggestions that you have for me or other information about George Fox and its' theatre program. I would love to hear your thoughts and what type of program you offer or even to meet with you to discuss the opportunities you have to offer and the requirements for a major.

I would great appreciate to hear back from you! Thank you for your time.

   

Kacy Helwig

Freshman Linfield College
Graduate St.Helens High School '11

Thanksgiving Break

I'm making Applesauce bars which i like. They ae like cake but healthier because its applesauce. But they are good. I'm home now.

I'm getting really sick of the limited Christmas commercials that are on tv. I hope more come out this week. Getting a little sick of Wal-Mart Layaway and Grandma got ran over by a reindeer...

I wish it was Christmas time. I hope that will make me happier because it's a different mood. So yeah.

Jillion Degrees

My room is literally a jillion degrees. My heater like went crazy and not its HOOOOOTTTTT in here. I couldn't get it to turn off. So i'm like sweating my ass off in shorts and a tank. I opened my closet which is always cold so now it will hopefully cool down a bit. But i got it off.

I finished my drafting Project thats due Friday on accident today. I had been staying after class just so that it was convienient to get lunch with Sami (I know but HA!) afterwards at 11:55. But today i was just workin on and in the zone and then was like wait. I just finished this... So then i was like wait can i turn it in so i can sleep in on Friday? Yep. So then at work i was like hey Rob can i take friday off? Yep. BAM. Done. Break will now start at 2:50 tomorrow. Which is awesome. But i'm staying here on Friday so that i can take Sami to the station on Friday. So now i can just go home that way. Which is cool. But i'm glad to be done soon. This has been a really tough week for me.

Its hot.

Twelve days of Thanksgiving Song

Made by me. Art by me. Lyrics by me. Done 1 year ago.

Costs.

Why did i never do this before.... Linfield = semester WOU=Year

My French Professor Learns my Name

Well crap. My french Professor learned my name. Now i actually have to speak in class! I had perfected the art of taking the really important notes at the time that he calls on people so as to not have to look like an idiot in front of all these immersion-school-AP-Study-abroad-for-months-native-speaking french kids. Luckily right now we're in something that i learned how to do really well in High school so i looked less like an idiot. But i also got my composition back today and i got a 31/34 for my first draft. Which i think is really cool. I'm better at writing french than speaking it or listening to it.  I think i like that the best anyways. I don;t like speaking it because i'm not compfrtable in the classroom. Because i was quite vocal in high school french... Meh.

At work i pushed the lift around/ drove the lift while someone pushed me around. We think its because the left motor is our which may control the directional movement. But the wheels don't turn correctly or follow directions so it was all a game of pushing it around on the floor. While someone holds on and tried to steer it electronically a little bit. Yeah... :-/\/\ That's a new face.

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Bunny!

P.s. I like bunnies lately they look really cute

So far today...

1. I worked on a project for 2 hours got stuck on something being impossible so i got my professor and he said huh. Guess it won;t fit in that page with that layout. Okay. Now i'll change it so that you have to redo all that work. -.-' Ugh. So i started over.

2. Ate a sandwich with lots of pepper. Smashed some chips in it too.

3. Called WOU to se what they had of mine.

4. Ordered SAT and AP scores to be sent there.

5. Wrote 1 paragraph of a paper due tomorrow.

6. Got sad. Resisted texting him. It's not getting any easier. That's all bs. Calculated how long it would take me to get there about 50 times just today. Realized 50 times how it wouldn't make a difference...

7. Went to French.

Breathe

Triple Bypass Double Man Burger

Last night i ate this. At Spencers house for dinner all the Bramble-wood guys decided to make this: the triple bypass double man burger. And i ate it. The whole thing. Its a grilled cheese then bacon and burger and ketchup and another grilled cheese. Yep.

Then i went to strike for the play. It started at 10 and we stopped at 1. It wasn't done but it'll get finished on Monday. The lift for the lights has been freaking out when moving so there wasn't much that i could do. But i got some stuff done. It was not very fun... Which is fine because its not really supposed to be. But afterwards i guess its a thing that they go to Sharis afterwards. So i went even though i felt sickish. But it was really early. And i was really tired. But it was okay. When i got in line to pay i started talking to Rob the Scenic Director. He asked if i was still thinking of transfering and i told him yes and that i had applied. He told me that he thinks i'm making the right decision. He said that since i have no desire in acting that i am doing the right thing in finding what i want to do. He says i'm smart. And that its a smart move. I like that.

I also liked coming home to no roommate. That's good. I hope that can happen at Western...

I applied to WOU

Yep. I did. So there. For Winter. And now i'm really considering doing it.

Yesterday i went to my one class and then slept for four hours afterwards. So then i went to Jared and Thads one acts. I was kinda like damn going by myself... But it worked out fine. Once i found it... I sat with the Thurstons and Barnetts. Mrs. Barnett likes me. She always talks to me when she sees me which is cool/ always throws me off because I didn't actually know who the heck she was until they were engaged. And even then i didn't know for like a long time. But she's nice. But i sat by Joe. Which worked out. All three one acts were good. And afterwards the Barnetts was talking to me about transferring. They think that if i hate it now is it really going to change? I think they are right. Its just the wrong fit. Not what i thought and not what i wanted. Yes there are opportunities there. But in the scope of things... Not worth it... Which is disappointing. But yeah i talked with them. And i talked with Thad and Jared for a bit but then they had other stuff to do so i left. It was sorta... lonely then. Like they had moved on... Which they have and should because that's life. But i was really jealous. Because i haven't because i can't. They actually like their college and are proud of it. And i... Am not. At all... So i was upset driving home. And i got there and went up to my room and was still sad. So i found out wht spencer was up to and went there. So now i'm here.

And i had fun and wasn't anti social last night. Which was good. I'm glad i came here because i was really upset. And it helped. But i like it here. Much more.

Sorry...

About anyone who saw last nights post... i get angry or frustrated and upset and my instinct is to strike back at anyone around. I self implode. I;m so frustrated and trapped here. I feel soooo trapped. And stuck. I feel a lot of pressure because of everything.

I'm just sick of everyone here being so perfect. And dressing so perfect. And talking so perfect. And acting so perfect. And last night i went to Colloquium and it was all about how awesome Linfield is and perfect and there's always someone to talk to and get help from and i've made so many good memories and blah blah blah. And i was just like please just get me out of here... I don't feel that way here. I hate it here. The room has made it standable but i hate it!!! I HATE IT. And i think Lighting is not what i want. The lifestyle that goes with it would not be worth it. And i don't want to light a stage for the rest of my life. And i don't want to live in a city. Or travel all the time. Or do 16 internships. Which apparently everyone around here has done. And volunteers 60 hours a week. Its just so stupid here! People look at you like you're an alien if you wear sweats. Like good god this is COLLEGE people. NOT THE FRICKIN' MISS AMERICA PAGEANT!!!!!!!! It just sucks here. And no one really believes me but i hate it and it sucks. And no there are not many nice people here. There aren't.

But i'm upset. Still. And its not getting better.

Biking

I took an hour bike ride today. It was good. I was frustrated and stuff. Tonight i had to go to a turkish music guy. He was kinda cool but kinda boring.

Welding

I learned/ tried welding today. It was kinda scary/cool. Yep. That's what i did at work. I learned how to do something fun/ sat around while the other two people did too. Pretty easy 8 bucks.

Schedule for Spring

Originally i said i wasn't going to take french and i was going to try something else. But I got the last registration time possible so everything was full. This is everything that i'm taking. Except for Stats. I got put on the waitlist for it. I'm hoping that since i emailed him that he may let me in...If he doesn't then i'm going to have to take Precalc... Which is at 8:15 to 9:05 everyday. And that would kinda suck. But it is 5 credits. In order to transfer i would need a math class this term. So that's what i'm going for. I could switch into Precalc right now because there are spots but its really early... and everyday.. and harder math... And i have taken precalc in high school but i dunno. I almost want to take like algebra because i liked algebra in high school.... And it was easy... Sorry dad. I know. But no i won't take geometry.

But yeah. If i have to take Precalc then i'll drop ballet. I'm only taking that because i need 16 credits. And its something that won't give me an attack.

Oh and the single number after is how many credits for the class. 

Concert

Thanks Grammy, Grandpa, Joe, Mom, Dad, Spencer, and Sami for coming to my concert :-)

I am in Class!

And it is crazyyyyyy booorrriiiinnnnggggggg. Worst class in the world. Today we have a work day to peer review. And she spent the first hour talking. It was quite annoying. But currently someone is peer editing my paper and i have nothing to do.... Hmmm...

Drum Corps Day

Today felt like a drum corps day. Really long and really boring and lots of doing nothing kinda. I woke up. Went to class. Rode back to the dorm for 3 minutes. Rode to Mahaffey to turn in key. Rode back to class. Rode to lunch. Ate food. Rode to dorm. Rode to other class. Rode to work. Rode to Albertsons. Rode to Dorm. Ate food. Rode to Dress Rehearsal. Rode to dorm. Rode to Different persons dorm. Rode back to my dorm. Walked to Ra's room. Walked upstairs.  And now i'm here and its 1:06 am. And i'm not tired. Even though on old DLS time it's 2. :-/ Really glad i have a bike.

Drank lots of water. Feel really sore from not riding a bike in a long time. Bored. Empty. Like no texts.

Felt like OC.

New Room + Stuff

Wal-Mart

Today i got a new bike at Wal-mart. Its purple and good. Dad wanted me to get a one speed but i like the gears better. One speeds just look really heavy. But its cool. I like it. I almost got a girls bike instead of a Woman's bike. Which is a two inch difference but i didn't. But yeah its purple and i like it. Works good. I had Chinese food which i hadn't had in a while. SO that was nice too. But then i thought that i left my purse at Wal-mart after we left. So that sucked because then when i went back to find it i couldn't anywhere and i was doing the fast walk to go to everyone that could have it. In the midst of freaking out i remembered that i had left it in MY car because i didn't need anything out of it for the rest of the day. So yeah. But Dad also got me a microwave so that now i can make stuff again. And i got an extension cord, so i can plug things in now. But it was a pretty stressful time for a while there.

Last night i went to the play at the high school. Midsummer nights dream. It was good. I enjoyed it. I was hesitant about whether i would like it after being in college because i think that from what I've seen it really changes your perspective on how good or bad things are. And yes it wasn't college theater but it's not supposed to be because it was put on by a high school. I think that it is important to see them as two different entities. College is more precise but in my opinion sometimes to a fault. I think they have different strengths and both serve a different purpose. But the play was good. I would have done some things different but any play I see I would say that. I liked the concept. I liked the make-up. I liked the play. I found it enjoyable.

Barnett asked me to come talk to tech theater about what I've learned or whatever. I don't really know how well that will work. I almost want him to ask me to assist with Godspell this January just because I'm going to be bored out of my mind at home... Not that i can't find stuff to do. But it will be different. I look forward to the break though.

I liked talking to Josh and Cassidy this weekend a lot. They are really good friends. And they are real. I like that. I think it would be really fun to go to college with them. I think it would be fun times. But I really liked talking to them. It was comfortable and familiar. And that's what I've been needing. And it was better because i didn't have to pretend that things weren't different than from when i was in High school with them. Because it was but i didn't feel the need to miss being there. Things were still cool even though i left. Which i like.

I know it's early...

But i think that though the single is what i want that it might not fix everything like i thought it might... I really like it. For sure. But it's not going to solve all that i thought it would. More and more right now i;m feeling that this isn't the ideal fit of a college that i always wanted. I like the theatre... But i still don't know if it is all worth it.

Moving is a pain. I got it done. And now i don't want to for a long time... I do still feel lonely. And even when I'm with people i feel lonely. But i don't know if really there is anything that i could do to change it. I'll be happier in the single, but I'm still lonely... :-/

I'll put up pictures of my room once it looks better. But i dunno when that will be. I'm having power issues, getting everything to a spot where it can be plugged in. Yeah.

New room - Stuff

New room! I have a closet that is very low and hard to see anything in but i still like it. I need to put a lamp in it though. But i really like it a lot. Its much bigger and more space. Sami helped me move. All my crap is in there mostly except for my tv, fridge, fish tank, purple trunk. The heavy stuff basically. But i am SOOO excited to be moving. SO EXCITED. I already met girls on my floor and they are nice and it just 5 of us on the 3rd floor. So that's nice. The room is big and awesome. It's also quieter. Which is nice.

Right now i;m in Larsell with Sami and her hall watching Bones. Season premier! So good! Love this show!

Tomorrow i'll have to move the heavy stuff. And meet with the RA's of my old dorm and new. Gotta go over room stuff. Thats kinda sucky to figure out. But its all good.. Mostly it will be how to get heavy stuff upstairs... :-/

SINGLE ROOM HERE I COME!!!!

YES! They have a single and it will be MINE.

Sadest Criminal Minds Quote Ever.

"We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship, can we create the illusion for a moment that we're not alone."

Orson Welles

A Thousand Thanks

We are almost at a thousand page views which is kinda cool, by the average view count we'll be there today. Keep your eye out and whoever is number 1,000 you get a prize. Not really. But i might give you a high five. (Poor college kid). But thanks for your continued support of me being here and listening to me. It's nice to know that some people care all the time.

The deadline for the first draft of the paper I've been stressing over she moved. So yeah. I'm relieved but from hearing other people in the class they haven't started. Hopefully though she's moving it back like a couple weeks but i dunno...

Last night i had a dream that i got a text in like some Asian language. Weird... But Halloween was fun. I liked getting out. It was good. And being able to laugh was nice. Still no word about the single room situation... So i emailed the guy and asked if there has been any progress.

I have to write another french composition. And ugh. I am so bad at understanding tenses. I need like a whole class for just that. Like not class period but an entire 4 credit class that would teach me just that. Because i do not get it. And it's been explained to me a billion times... Yeah. But that's the stressful part. I have a test in there on Thursday that includes listening so I'm screwed on that part. I really think I'm going to be done with it after this semester. I just don;t like it very much anymore. Its not the same environment...

Also Criminal Minds premiers tonight which will be good. I don;t know what time though. But that class sucked again today like always...

If anyone wants to go to my band concert it is next Tuesday the 8th in Ice Auditorium in Melrose Hall. I think it's free? It starts at 7:30. But you might wanna come around 7:10ish or so to get a seat. I sit in the middle 2nd row so good luck seeing me but yeah.