Tonsil Haikus

Courtesy of my mother: 

Throat hurts. Ice Meds Sleep.

Mom buys cherry popcicles

Dad brings bigger drugs.

Tonsils out. Eyes too.

Screen saver glow turns off.

Drug induced sleep heals.

Daughter's tonsils out!
watching sleep in blue chair now
to wake with drugs soon

Ziplocked ice bags in
support hose stockings around
tonsils swelling less :)

Rough morning barf bowl
Not party recovery
Dream beyond tonsils

Tonsils connected
or unconnected to the
ear nerve. Ouch. scream all!  

Distraction wonders

brother sister-in-law friends

still feels bad but smiles

But wait, a fever?

blanket so cozy comes off?

Chihuahua's sad face. 

Day six post op sigh
Everyday a new challenge
My daughter still heals 

A first! She eats soup!
and stays awake longer than
commercial to next!

There she goes again
hands clutched around water glass.
Doze. Spill. No notice.

Trip to the doctor
Crazy Lady scolding us
Come to find out "Fine"

Not a medical,
Spanish Teacher sees no blood.
Bauch! What's that red stuff?

Every three hours
up to give oxycodone
I remember this.

Asleep and no pain
Awake loopy seeks pillow
Ouch needs ice. please.thanks.

Back to school mom goes
Little cups of red drugs filled
Self loaded slept lots.

Brother home to help
Mom and dad off to work soon
Jello, Ice fight. Fun   

Spencers:

Sitting with Kacy
Hm, should I write a haiku?
I think I Just did...

Dropping Classes for Sanity

So I dropped 2 classes in order to save my sanity. I just had no way to catch up. And it wasn't worth trying to kill myself trying. I feel kinda meh about it. I had to petition the school to not be responsible for a grade and make sure that I still am considered full time. I went from 18 to 10 credits... I feel like my load is like halved. Probably because it pretty much is. But i like it. I've been able to get sort caught up a little. I had a midterm in french today. It went okay i think? The hardest part was some phonetic stuff which is hard because the french language has a lot of weird sounds and pronunciation slur things. The question sentences on the test were the same as the homework from 2 weeks ago that i had done the night before. So score for me!

My professor laughed out loud during our test today because she was correcting an essay I wrote. It was about how an alien creature came and ate a bunch of stuff including my homework then left. And at the end I said I wanted to go to school the next day but because I didn't have my homework I told my professor I was having a tonsillectomy so I wouldn't have to do it for 2 weeks.  Also, it ate Rosalyn's fish so I replaced it with a goldfish cracker and figured she wouldn't notice. Oh well.

Recovery

Sorry i haven't posted lately. But frankly what was there to post other than "I'm miserable." But now i am kinda on the upswing. Other than throwing up my Vicoden meds both yesterday morning and this morning. The meds I've been on make me drowsy and dizzy and tired and depressed and it all just sucks. I have been struggling the past couple days to catch up in my classes. Mostly just 2 and it has been a horrible time. I decided today that for the good of my sanity and health and everything that I just need to drop my writing intensive one. I just can't do it with everything on my plate. I can;'t write a paper by Monday after i just struggled to write one for Wednesday and it just seems too much work for feeling like i do. I think that catching up in my french classes will be better because those professors are more flexible with me turning in things when I can as long as i get them done in the term. And i really like that. But looking at this term and how i feel  right now i think it will take a while to fully feel like myself again. And in the meantime trying to maintain 18 credits is going to kill me.  SO i emailed that professor and told her that I'll be withdrawing if i can't get a medical leave thing. But in the meantime i just feel like i could sleep all day. And pretty much up until now i have been. My throat feels okay when i don't yawn but hurts when I do. So that's a good thing. Dang it not going to think that word anymore because then I do it. So mostly things are okay and I think I made the best decision for me... feels kinda crummy to do it but i think it will be the best plan for me.

I'm not interested in food at all lately. Only trying to force myself does anything. I lost 17 lbs. That's kinda scary. But i guess that happens if you don't eat for 2 weeks...

Flowers from Grandpa!

My Grandpa sent me flowers! They are beautiful!

Bye Tonsils

I got them taken out today. Now i am on the cold drink and mashed potato diet. I feel pretty crappy. But holy cow i looked in my throat and everything is white. Even my tongue. It is gross. But also WOW i had big Tonsils! I actually have a throat now! WOW! I was really not prepared for thinking it would be a real surgery with a gown and everything. I thought it would be like wisdom teeth where you just kinda pop in get the iv and do it. But noppppe. It took all day and was pretty legit. I had to wear a hair net and everything. And leg compressors. And bad socks they didnt even have heel spots. They also put my in this swank gown that puffed up and was warm. It was cool. But now here i am. SLeeping and drinking cold drinks. And taking ALL the drugs.

Say whaaat?

So my positive feelings and attitude about my tonsils turned out to be a bust. I went to the ENT doctor and he pretty much looked (after an hour of talking about housing market, financial aid, how to get a job, Stephen King, mouth guard things, his kids, art history, etc.*) ((*if even an etc could exist from this vast array of topics)) and said that YES they are quite large and it would be best to take them out. He said if i didn't they would just get worse and worse and cause sore throats and sickness and colds and make it harder to breathe, and act up at inopportune times. He said if i didn't have the surgery he would give me antibiotics and i could take them after they act up and cause problems but that it would never go away. GREAT.

So the surgery will take about 30 minutes and have a recovery time of 10-14 days. That's missing a lot of school. But he can do my tonsils and my nose surgery at the same time. WHAT. WHAT NOSE SURGERY!?!? Apparently ladies and gentlemen, the reason i breathe through my mouth is because my nasal cavities are TINY. So he wants to melt them somehow or something. But he can't do ALL of the things normally done in a plain nose surgery because he's not allowed or whatever. So if i really wanted to i could come BACK to finish the rest. WHAT. But he doesnt think i would need the other part. But the nose surgery would really help my sleep apnea. WHAT?! I have sleep apnea!? What is going on!?!?

Apparently I have:
Obstructive Sleep Apnea
Chronic Tonsillitis
Chronic Tonsillolith
Nasal Obstruction

GREAT! Just what i always wanted... So now i have to figure out when the heck i am going to do this all. I think what i am starting to realize is that the sooner that i do it will overall be better. And better to miss school early in the term than later. And not wait until next term when i have a bunch of teachers that i don't know. So Spring break wouldn't be long enough and would then kill any spring break plans. And summer is kinda out because of all the events that i have going on and then if something went wrong like an infection or something then it is a problem because of France. So CRAP! This sucks!!!

There is a ton of health benefits of doing it. But frankly it sounds like a real pain in the ass. Especially because like who is going to take care of me? So that sucks... And what about classes?

So i emailed all my professors saying i want to have meeting with them. But i think that the best thing to do is to move forward with it and get it done ASAP. Or else i know me and i will try to put it off for the rest of forever and then it will just get worse and worse.

P.s. I thought it was interesting about the nose thing that he could tell i don't breathe through it like EVER. After one look. Why did no one ever tell me to get this done before. My nose breathing is pathetic. I guess i will (pun coming up) breathe a little easier knowing it will be done and out of the way for France though.  :-)

Doctors...

So my tonsils hadn't improved and a couple nights ago i couldn't sleep because of a sore throat. It hurts when I swallow. So now that school started I went in to health services and told them the whole story. How i went to my primary doctor after one month and she did nothing and didn't test for anything and now it is about a month later and it isn't any better. She looked pretty skeptical at this point as to WHY they didn't even bother with a strep test just to rule it out. She said it costs like 5 bucks. Okay works for me! She said my throat is definitely irritated. And my left tonsil is VERY MUCH enlarged. She did a strep test and it was negative. Then she told me that she wants to refer me to an ENT (Ear Nose Throat) doctor. She ran my blood to rule out mono and see if something is going on in my blood work or i am fighting an infection. She also gave me some Penicillin to try for a week. If it gets better then YAY!!!!!! But if not then she suspects they will want to take them out... Which means surgery... Which means that I would also have to do recovery... In the middle of the term... Gross. SO i am hoping the antibiotics will get rid of it. At least I am telling myself it will.