Today i woke up at spencers in the couch... Like i pushed the cushions half way out and was in the crack between the sofa and cushions. It was fine though. I woke up and beat Kingdom Hearts 1. And then started playing Kingdom Hearts 2. It's been chill.
Mostly the title is reflecting my financial aid to WOU. They offered me loans. But not any scholarship. At all... Which is kinda dumb i think because i am still considered to be a first year student. But i mean nothing? Really? Nothing? Not even anything? No merit? No nothing? How am i supposed to like that? I'm kinda upset by this fact.
That's what I hate about my life right now. I worked my frickin' butt of in High school. I think few people can say that on many days they were there for 14 hours straight at least 2 days a week. I did a lot. And i took on a lot. And I frickin' stressed myself out and was really awesome and now no one cares. It just doesn't matter. Sometimes it all feels like a dream. Because my life now if like a complete 180. Its like my life ended almost and now I'm in this new crappy one. And it frickin' sucks. And I'm angry about it. I'm angry that this happened and i went to this crap college and now no one even wants me anywhere else. Like. What the hell. Seriously. Now i feel like i have to stay. Because no one anywhere else seems to give a . So i'm angry.
Don't give up hope dear :),
ReplyDeleteit is not too late to make a wonderful life for yourself, you can still be whatever you want to be, it may have to take longer and may put you through some times, but you can do it. A lot of people still remember how hard you worked in high school, and the effort you put into high school was not a waste, it has bettered (word?) you as a person and worker, and it gives you a hige advantage in your current school work and ambitions. Don't worry you are not alone, a lot of the feelings you are experiencing I am feeling too. Everything happens for a reason, this broken path may be the only way to get to your perfect paradise. :p Sorry about the cheesyness, and the essay. Listen to some Taylor Swift, makes everything better! :p