Le Petit Nicolas!

We're going to read le petit Nicholas in my french class! It is a french classic and everyone knows about it in France. I don't know if thats true in America... But here's a brief overview compliments of me.

Le Petit Nicolas is this kid who is CRAZY! And he gets into lots of crazy antics. The author writes from his point of view and since he is only 7 he has a lot of run on sentences. But his mind is really funny and it sort of plays off the things that kids do.

Here's an overview by not me:
"It's about a young French boy, Nicholas, and his school friends. It's written in first-person as Nicholas, and what I found particularly endearing was the way the sentences read as though they were really written by a seven year old. They run on, but are clear to understand. Each chapter is like a short story or an individual episode, and his reactions to the things that happen are very unique. Example "...Alec hit him on the cap with his tomahawk and said he was taking him prisoner and Rufus was upset because he'd dropped his whistle in the grass and I was crying a bit and telling Eddie this was my yard and I never wanted anything to do with him again, and everyone was shouting and it was all great, we were having a fantastic time." Adults will probably appreciate the quaintness of this book better than children, but it's a fun read for anyone, and a quick, easy read."

But i am excited!!!! We read a few sections in my french class last year in high school and we also watched the movie but i missed it for band or Drama or something. But i am excited!!!

It Doesn't Take a Genius...

Why do all librarians assume that it takes a brain surgeon to figure out how to use the library?! Like seriously. Every single school makes you go through the learn how to use the library thing and they are all pretty much exactly the same... I got an assignment to look for a book since i was gone on Tuesday. She wanted me to make an appointment to learn how to find a book. But seriously.... I did it in five minutes.... Seriously. But they always want to show you how and make it seem really complicated. I'm pretty sure that i know that everything goes alphabetically. And then wow look at that then they go numerically!!!! WHO WOULDA THOUGHT!?!?

Yeah. I find it super annoying... i think i'm just venting though.

I really wanna say something to him... But I think that it is better to not... Even though i really wanna...

I Got Pulled Over

I got pulled over for the first time ever. It was freakin' scary. I was super freaked. I sped through Gaston i guess because i missed the third speed limit sign. Apparently that's a $300 citation... But luckily he didn't give it to me. I think because:

a) I'm from Warren. And he probably had no idea where the heck that is.
b) He thought i was some other policemans sister.
c) I didn't even know which paper was my insurance.
d) I looked like a deer in the headlights.
e)Never had a citation before.
f) I was having a terrible day and he had ESP.

So thank you Mr. Policeman for not giving me a ticket. But you made it physically impossible to drive over 40 all the way to Mac. Even though its a 55 road... But thanks for not giving me a ticket!

I Came Home

Yesterday i decided to come home. I needed out and i needed a break. So i came home. I went and saw Freshner after their school got out. It was good to talk to her and see her. I guess i miss that aspect of life that i don't really have anymore. but i liked that it didn't feel weird doing it. Then i went to go see if Mlle. Pearman was there but she wasn't so i went to Barnetts. He gave me a hug. He really does give the best hugs ever. He was really cool. I miss seeing him too. But i'm going to judge for State Improv Fest this weekend so that will be good. Keep me busy and let me come home. Then i went home to hang out with my parents. We watched a movie on the ne 55" screen TV. It was pretty cool. We get HD this weekend. Not that i can really see the difference... I know everyone can and it's such a difference but i just don't see it. Even when you switch between the same channel on HD and non-HD. But whatever. Then i went over to see Kim. That was really nice. It gave me a better perspective an now i feel like i can get through this.

I gave her back Jordan's sweatshirt. It didn't feel as bad as i thought it would... I was nervous to walk in though. But i think i kinda surprised them. I have everything he gave me in a bag in the car. I'm trying to decide if i want to leave it here... At first i thought that it'd be best to just get everything out that reminded me. That to just erase it would be easiest. But i'm not sure that's what I want. I don;t want to shove everything away. I think i'll take the blanket he made me back to school. If i need it gone i can shove it under my bed. But i don't want to erase it. I think everything else i'll leave here. Yeah... Sorry that was a long thinking through my keyboard.

After i was at Kims, i went and saw the band. I got to be part of Visual Staff for the night and climb up on the scaffolding. That was really cool. I'm glad that the bands doing okay. They need some work but they got time. A bunch of them got together and yelled at me that i was beautiful. :-) Nice to know that i still have friends and people who care even though i'm not there. Got to see and talk to lots of people who miss me and who i miss. It was good. I am really glad that i came home. I'm gonna head back tonight. I would have this morning but i just needed a little more time.

Untitled

I don't know. My world has gone to absolute crap. I don't even care anymore about anything. I want to throw up. I don't know if its from what i ate, or if i'm sick, or just upset. But i don't want to do anything. I just don't understand why this all happened... I don't want to go to class tomorrow. I hope that i am sick.

Cassidy's here!

Cassidy came down today. I went and saw Megan today. I just kinda wanted to get out. So it was nice to go see her. We watched Bridesmaids and walked to go see Spencer and Eli at the card shop. Then we went to Dutch Bros. It was very good. It was hot today too. But then i drove back. Niki and i went to the soccer game for the whole 1 minute left... But then Cassidy was coming so we went to the entrance of campus to meet her. Then she ot here and we all went to pretty crappy dinner... Like the worst since I've gotten here. So i had really saucy pizza.  But yeah. Then we took Cassidy on a dorm exploration at everyone's place. So that was cool. And then we went to the play which was pretty funny. And then we went to Arbys :-) That was reeaallllyyy good. And now we are back. Hanging in my room havin' some hang out time.

My friend Niki pets a cat. For the first time.

This is Mac the cat. He is a stray that lives over by Potter Hall. He's super nice and likes people so we all like him a lot. He's sort of been adopted by Linfield. But Niki has been scared of cats so i made her pet him. An now she likes cats. I also taught her how to swim.

Breakfast/ Lunch in Salem

Went to Bill and Kathis today. Well this morning... Uncle Bill and I went to breakfast with Granpda and that was good. I miss my family a lot. I wish i wasn't so busy... But my class was cancelled this morning so i could go down. I woke up at 7am though. Which kinda sucked because i didn't go to bed til 1:30 because of driving home from Salem last night. It was soooo hard to get up. I think i have 11 hour (+30 min nap) for my 48 hours of day.  So thats not a lot. But i'm doing okay. After we talked for a bit at Grandpas we went beck to Uncle Bills house and i took a nap. So that was good. It's been a while since i slept with a dog next to me. So that was fun. I slept REALLY hard. So i feel pretty refreshed now. But no swimming at 5:30 because we have colloquium tonight. So thats a bummer. But maybe we'll go after. I dunno. Oh and after i took a nap we went to lunch with Kathi so it was nice to talk to her for a little bit. I liked getting her perspective on life and such. French was fun today! I liked it.We learned questions. Now i'm putting off doing a paper...

Went and Saw HP7P2 Again.

So we got bored tonight so we decided to go see Harry Potter 7 Part 2 because Ashley hadn't seen it yet. But the closest theater was salem... Oh well it was fun!

I don't even know....

I don't know why i'm here. I feel so depressed lately... I don't want t go to classes, i don't want to write papers. I don't even want to get up. I don't want to see anyone. And i went to George Fox yesterday and saw Thad and Jared and they seem so happy to be at college and i'm not. I don't feel comfortable here. I feel like i'm wasting so much money on something so stupid. Why did i choose this stupid school? It's not even good. I feel like i wasted all my money on this school and now i'm getting stuck here. I don't want to do band. I don't want to do anything. I don't want to take french. I just don't know why i'm here. I don't fit in here with these people. I can't spend this much money all the time. I don't want to be here. I don't. I don't want to stay here.

Bid Night....

It's bid night for girls who rushed. It sounds like this right now...

AHhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! ........ AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! ........ AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!...... Stomp stomp stomp stomp.... AHHHHHH!!!!!!! ........ pound pound pound pound.... AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

P.s. that was about 30 second sample of the sounds going on.

What a day...

So today was adventure out into the word of community service. I woke up at 7:45 and Niki, Ash, Meg, and I went out to breakfast at Sharis and then got Dutch Bros. Got back to school at 8:30 to go on our community service proects. We signed up for the same group project but we got split up anyways... But thats okay. I went to the food bank here in Mac. It was about 10 blocks away. We sorted food and stuff and i really liked it. Some of the people doing it though were like eh i don;t wanna be here. And so i was thinking well why are you... But yeah. We have to do something for our Colloquium that satisfies the common book that we all read and so helping others qualifies for that. But i went to the food bank and really liked it. Felt good.

Then we came back and Niki and I went to brunch. Then we decided to go find her a swimsuit at Fred Meyers in Newberg. This thinking that Freds usually has SOME swimsuits year round. We got there... Nope... SO i called Uncle Bill and we decided that the best place to go next was Woodburn to the outlets. So we went there. Nope... So then we raced over to salem to a Big 5 which we found out did have swimsuits and so we found one that worked ($60 on sale for $30). But then came back here and had to make it in time for Meg and Ash to go to a auction thing that they were doing.

So then Niki and I went to Dinner with Sami and Katie and some other people. And then we needed to get some stuff done so we went to the Library for the hour and a half that it would be still open. You would think they would leave it open later on the weekend cause that's when people would need it! But yeah.

Then i was upset because i have two papers due soon and after having to go to the orchestra concert last night i was like dieing of writing stupid music crap. So that makes me wanna die. So then we went and got ice cream and shortcake cake and ice cream. Oh crap I mean strawberries. I'm tired. And then i made strawberry shortcake because Niki had never had it. I thin she liked it. Oh and Ash and Meg came over for that and we watched Aristocats which made me feel better but now i have to do the stupid paper and i really don't want to. I think i might just put a bunch of crap out because i really am done with this stupid assignment that has had:

2 hours of listening to music to be played before hand
30 minutes reading packet-o-crap guidelines that are ridiculous and say nothing
30 minutes writing notes about this music and answering stupid questions
20 minutes of pre-writing before the concert
40 minutes of a pre concert lecture and writing notes
2 hours of actual concert
30 minutes rough drafting so far

All of which has been required for this stupid class. SO yeah. For one frickin assignment that is worth only 5% of my grade? I don't frickin' care. Meanwhile this professor is incredibly confusing!!!!! So yeah screw this.


P.s. World don't say "well that's college" or i'll shoot you.

Poptart Cat

Sorrry this is very random but i liked it.

Glowing review!

YAAAAAAAYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ty liked my shapes! He was blown away that this was my first time!!! He had a few comments on them but he liked them!!!! YAY!!!!!!! I am happy!!!!! Mine looked way beter than some other peoples in the class too. I guess i just have an eye for these thing ;-)

Seal of Approval

Woot woot! I just got my paper back from Fundies and i got a 39/40! Woot woot! Go Kacy it's not your birthday, but we are partying like it is anyways!

Jasmine just gave me a "coke ball". Apparently it's like a candy and you suck on it and it tastes like Coca Cola. It does but its weird. Also you can't get them from the U.S. I asked her if it was because there's coke in it. She said no she's not trying to drug me. Or is she? ;-)

I'm writing a paper for tomorrow right now but it's too long.... Dang.

Party at Steves!

 

So tonight was party at Steve my Colloquium professors house. We all thought that it would be super awkward but it ended up being less awkward than we all thought! We had ice cream with lots of toppings and soda and stuff. And for fun we played charades and everyone had a chance to go for a minute. My team won! And i went last. I got basket weaving. How the heck do you do basket weaving!? I dunno how but they got it! Also i had graduation, prayer, watering plants, and.. Some other ones i think. But dude basket weaving!? And my team won by just one point. So yeah. I am a pro charade basket weaver. 

Comme des Enfants

This is a song that i have listened to over three hundred times since last spring when Mll. Pearman showed us it in french class. I can sing all the words and pretty much know what its saying. But here is where translation can be found. I just like the sound though.

http://french2music.wordpress.com/2010/01/04/comme-des-enfants-coeur-de-pirate/

Assignments

I got a 40/50 on my letters. I had to work on lettering so i did nine pages of the alphabet making straight letters and numbers. I'm happy with a 40. I took as much time on them as i was willing to and stuff.

In my INQS class i got a 5/6 and a 6/6 on my two page papers. And i'm pretty happy with that too.

I kinda messed up my french quiz the other day but we'll see on that.

I feel like today in my INQS class we got like a bajillion assignments. And she is really bad at explaining thing so its really annoying. She's making us go to a concert tomorrow which is fine but the music they are playing i find really boring. So that kinda sucks... Maybe i can convince one of my friends to go with me...

I feel really EH today. I'm really tired because i was up late working for my INQS class on stuff we didn't even talk about today... That sucked. But i have to write a paper tonight and we're also going to Professor Steves house for dessert tonight which i predict will be super awkward... Probably will have some cobbler or something.

:-/ <--- I feel like that.

Pants!

I ripped my pants and didn't realize it until i was walking into Famous Footwear with the girls. Ooops... That ladies and gentlemen is why you keep a sweatshirt in the car :-)

Turtles!

I really want a turtle. Like pretty dang bad. I wish i could have one. And then i'd get a tank where it could swim around. But me and that turtle there spent some quality time together at Petco... last night? I think it was last night. Days seem really long/short here. But i really want a turtle... I will have one eventually. So it's a good thing that i am keeping fish right now for practice. But i want a turtle!!!!

This Drink...

Is nasty. Probably because it has only 2 calories... But i got it when i took Sami to Albertsons today so she could yell at her bank. But i went hunting for a sleep mask. And i did find one! Yay!

Final Shapes

Shapes Shading!

So today in Fundamentals of Design and Drawing (Or Fundy's as it's lovingly called) it was a work day to work on our shadings. It is way harder to shade than to draw! Man i feel so bad at it! But i think they look okay? I only have two of the four done but it took me an hour to do two.  They look like this:

Cone

 

 

 

 

Cylinder

 

 

My cylinder needs more work... The highlight is really bad because i can't get it the right shade to make it all look good. I think I'll have to erase a big chunk so that i can redo it... Again... For the fourth time...

But it gives me something to do! I have a blister developing on my finger though :-/ I like my cone...

Brownie Night round 1

Hey ya'll. It's been a little longer than usual. But i came back to Linfield yesterday and then everything got craaazy. I went to the Spaghetti and Chocolate Cake Theater get to know everyone thing and that was pretty awkward. I had just eaten spaghetti the night before too. Oops. That was pretty poor remembering on my part...  But i went with my friend Sammi but she was feeling sick so yeah we cut out when it was appropriate to do so. Then she went to do homework and since i did mine at home i didn't really have anything else to do. So then i met up with Meghan, Ashley, Katie, and Niki and we decided to go find Niki a swim suit. So we went to Goodwill, Ross, and Wal-mart and no where had like any!!! So that kinda ruined that plan.

We decided to round up brownie night so since we had two boxes we did one last night with Sami, Katie and Niki and then are doing one tonight with more people.... I don't know if we'll have enough though now... We may have to get another box...

But that was fun! Tonight is Brownie night round 2!

My Shapes!

So i started on my shapes and they look so much better than i thought they would! I forgot a little bit how to draw them but i figured it out and they look Sweet! I would post pictures but i haven't done the shading on them yet. We'll do that on Monday in class. But i am excited that they don't look like crap (like those up there)!!! I'll post pictures when they are done. But they look soooo much better than i thought they would!

Cats Song!

This is one of my favorite youtube videos that i've seen. This is the song version of this video. But basically this girl made a online dating video. It's fake but i still think it's funny. But she basically starts talking about herself but then gets super emotional about loving cats. But mostly i just can't watch it without smiling!

Penatonic Scale

I'm home! But i thought i'd share with ya'll a cool video that we were shown in my Freshman inquiry class on Music. They have lots of different inquiry classes here and you can pick from a variety of different subjects. I chose the music one because duh. And it's designed for non-music people and it's kinda fun. But i have issues with it because it's really long... But it's still cool. We do drum circles. But we learned about the Pentatonic scale. And we saw this video.

Basically the pentatonic scale is using only five tones, usually the first, second, third, fifth, and sixth tones of a diatonic scale. And basically the idea is that all people know the five notes really easily and they are like engrained in your brain.

Sandwiches

 

I really like boring sandwiches.

We went to Quiznos today because i'm getting really tired of Dillin'. We were going to go to Arbys but it makes Niki sick. So since they hadn't ever been there we went. I think they liked it?

I liked it. I got a turkey sandwich. It was really good...

Brownie Night

This is what my face looks like because everyone bailed on Brownie night. Even though I scheduled it like a week ago. Lame people are painting rocks or dying hair or doing homework.

BOOOOOOOOOO.

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I Got a Tattoo!!!

 ... for 50 cents.

Yeah check out my sweet tat! I got it special from a magical machine that you put in two quarters and a white card pops out. I like it better than the cupcake one i got last time.

Note to everyone: Tattoos are better at Rite-Aid than at Goodwill.

Ow that Hurt

This morning my alarm went off an hour too early... That sucked. P.s. i don;t actually use an alarm clock i se my phone. But i have been waking up before my alarms a lot. I think it's because my roommate wakes up way earlier than i do like everyday. She needs more time to get ready and put on makeup and stuff... I just throw on clothes and brush my teeth. Anyways. I guess i;m not used to the twin size bed yet because i swung my arm on and hit it against the wall last night. Apparently the walls are sharp because it started bleeding a little bit and i had to get a band aid. :-/ So that kinda sucks.

Of all my classes the one that i have to go to this morning is my least favorite. It's about music and it's effects and different types and stuff. It would seem to be right up my alley but the teacher has no technical knowledge so when shes trying to show us a Youtube video she doesn't know how and it takes 20 minutes... We do a drum crcle everyday which is kinda fun. They all start to sound the same though. No one knows dynamics yet so it tends to be more noise than anything. Bu that's probably the best part of the class. It's way longer than all my other classes though because i only have it twice a week. It's an hour and 40 minutes of really boring stuff. And there's no clock... Yeah not looking forward to it.

I'm really sore from this bed. The pillow top helps but it still feels like a rock. I'm excited to go home this weekend and sleep in my bed.

Stupid Air

 

Oh. It's been hot the past couple days so i have my little fan on. And i get hot so i angle it to blow on me. But then my eyes hurt and so i turn it away but then i get hot. You would think maybe they'd let us have air conditioning? Nah... Also that's a frickin' cool crab fan.

Can you guys comment? I thought i made it so you could. But i dunno if you just don't want to or what. But someone should try it.

Holy cow!

People are actually reading this! That is very surprising to me. But we'll see how long it lasts. I added a page view counter so that you can all see the status of my views as well. i like that they have the little line so i can see when people look... Not that I'm stalking you as you read this... (7h 59m to all you fellow Wildcats! ;-) But yeah that was pretty exciting!

Also I've decided that I'm going to need to invest in a lap desk. I never really have been one to sit at a table to do work. And i knew that coming into college but I've always just used a big textbook or something when i was at home. But in college all my books are paperback and way freakin' expensive... So tonight i tried to put it on my feet but they got hot. So then i put it on a binder but then the binder plastic started to do weird things... I think i was melting it... Ooops... So yep I'm gonna need to get one of those. Also a 3 ring hole puncher would be nice... Also motivation to not buy more snacks. I have too much... But i have issues with Breakfast. And lunch is expensive here... even though that's why i have a declining balance allotment... That i have more money on... EH... The food here has made me sick a couple songs. It's good but it just doesn't always sit well. Also, don't eat 3 days of pizza. You want to die. That is my advice to you...

Also i got about 3/4 through my paper... I'll do the rest tomorrow afternoon. And edit it and stuff. Also tomorrow is Brownie night with the girls!

Probably not a smart idea but i did it anyways...

So we went to Albertsons and my friend Meghan said she wanted a redbull. So i said have you had the infused ones from Dutch Brothers? And she said What's Dutch Bros. SO i was like oh my goodness. SO we went out and went there and she got one and so i got one and now i'm drinking it thinking this may not be the smartest idea... But i'm doing it anyways. And so soon it will be the Caffeine apocalypse as Jenna Marbles would say. (Also if you aren't offended by language you should go watch her what caffeine does youtube video.)


So.... Maybe i'll write my paper tonight like I thought I might!

These Things are Amazing!

 

These things are pretty much the best things ever. If you're reading a book that ou know that you'l have to write a paper on invest in a pack of these things. They are super bright and stick to the page easily but also come off so that you don't hurt the book.Mine have arrows so when i find something i thin i would want to maybe talk about later i just stick one of these dues in and keep reading! No fussing with writing notes because i know why i put it there anyways! And while i'm writing an outline for my paper they come in super handy! I just put orange 2 or green 3 on the outline and can do page numbers later! THEY ARE SWEET!

Drawing shapes

Today my first class is Fundaentals of drawing and design which I really think i'll enjoy. But today we started to talk about being able to / how to draw shapes and do their shadows and shading. Oh my gosh it looks crazy hard. I understand how to do it but now am more worried about if i will be able to do it!!! I guess though that i've always wanted to take an art class so now is the time but i'm a little bit nervous. But hey. College is when i can fail. I don;t feel like i need to be perfect like i was in high school. So if i suck then i'll get over it. :-) It does look kinda fun though...

Hypnotism

Soooo... On Saturday i decided that i would volunteer to go try and be hypnotized. It did work. And no i didn't do anything super embarrassing. Yes i remember it. Yes i thought it was fun. Yeah it was a little freaky feeling. It's like when you are falling asleep and are still conscious but just don't want to get up but you could if something prompted you. I haven't been able to find any videos of it. But i do have a couple pictures. What he did was have us feel temperatures, dance, see a belt as a snake, have us lounge on a beach, have us see naked people, make us think that he was invisible and a water bottle could therefore fly. It was all pretty crazy and no I didn't fake anything. At some points i thought it wasn't working and was going to sit down but then he'd say something and i'd do it without like controlling it consciously.  Anyways here are some pictures!

 This one above was in the beginning. That guy is sleeping on my butt. I didn't realize it.... (I'm in red.)

 And then we have more sleeping once he thinned some people out.

 Cold.

Dancing... I got moves okay!!!!

Things that are Lacking

 

One thing that i have noticed since coming here is the huge lack of clocks.  In High school pretty much every single room has at least one if not two clocks in it. And i get that the reason why colleges don't have clocks is because then you aren't watching it the whole time. But then professors tend to go over class time because they don't know what time it is. Also, i don't have a watch so i feel rude checking the time on my phone... but you know when you only have a short time between class and getting to work you gotta go when yo need to!

 

Also there is a huge lack of paper towels!!! I guess they are trying to reduce their waste and things but they don;t even give us those blow dryer things! So when you run to the bathroom to wash your hands you have to grab your hand towel. I find it a bit ridiculous though that I pay over 40k in tuition and i get no paper towels. Whats up with that?!

My basic thought on Pep Band

So i decided recently that i wasn't going to do Pep Band here... I know that probably comes as a bit of a shocker to some people. My dad was a little miffed i could tell. But i honestly don't really want to make band into my framework of who I am here. I feel like I've been there and done that and now i just don't want to have to commit to staying here on the weekends to play at the games. I just don;t really want to be involved in it. And i know that seems weird but i just don't have the same passion that i used to. I want to move on and do other things. But i still feel like i'm disappointing people by not doing it...

The Bell on Pioneer

If you've ever been here during an time on the hour or on the half hour you will hear the bell ring from the top of Pioneer hall. Pioneer is the building where my friend Niki lives. But what you should know is that the stair up to the dorms in this hall are a PAIN. Very steep and the dorms don't start til you are on the 3rd floor (which happens to be the one where Niki lives) ((Good thing too because i'd never visit her on the fourth!)).

Most importantly though is the bell that's located on the very top of the building. It plays every hour on the hour or two minutes after Verizon time and also plays every half hour. (It stops at night but i don't really know when.) However, something amazing happens at 6 o'clock every night. It plays some selected song on the bells. I was walking back from dinner today listening to the lovely melody of some song i don't know. I got to thinking of whether the magic six o clock is a random song that i programmed or if some actually does it. I would assume that the rings on the hours are programmed or else someones got a boring job. But the funny thing about 6 o clock magic time is that it's not the same song every time. Last night it was terrible Sound of Music and i wanted to die. So it makes me wonder...

Why?

I decided that since i'm starting a new chapter of life it'd be easier to just communicate my thoughts/ ideas/ whatever i think of on a blog so that anyone who wants to can read it. I don't know how often I will really update it but yeah. Here it is for you to see. Mostly it might be here to vent or to talk or to show whats going on over here at this college! Anything that i do could be put here or whatever. I will probably keep it in the PG 13 region, so you should be alright.

Check in when you want to/ can and you'll know whats up with me!