Today would have been a year a a half. And that's really hard to think about... Yeah i know i should try to not but really after 18 times how do you not notice what day it is... But its been hard for me. Its hard a lot here. I think that i;m mostly set on the idea of transfering at the semester... I really love the theatre department here. But it doesn;t feel worth it with everything else that is here. I don't have a sense of faith here. And i don't feel like i have the support that i need. Or friends. And i know that i could make some with time. But as far as faith goes i just don;t think it's really here for me. Or that i can go to. There is a chaplains ministry thing but its on Tuesday Nights so i can;t go...
Tomorrow i'm going to talk to Ty and he's going to convince me to stay. But i really am not sure that is what i want. It seems to me that it'd be easier and better for me to be somewhere where i know people. Just so that i don't have to fight so hard everyday. I like the theatre. That's not my issue and everyone's nice there. But i just do not want to act. I'm not interested in it. I don't want to do it. I don't. I don't mind anyone that does but i just don't.
Mostly he's just been on my mind today :-/
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